Approaching the Throne

I woke up feeling miserable. All of life’s troubles weighed on me during the night. My spirit felt crushed. It is so easy to keep going to that tape in my mind and replaying it at the harsh parts. Keeping the loop going on the main screens in Super High Definition, Dolby Surround Sense-A-Round, Joy Stealing, Holy Spirit Quenching, Future-Killing Projection…

…And a dry mouth to boot.

“This is the day that the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalms 118:24 NKJV

I despised this day. I painfully lifted my tongue off the bottom of my mouth. With every swallow, my mouth became less harsh. I pressed “PAUSE” on my mind’s tapes. I turned the heater on in the bathroom and let the shower run a bit on WARM. I dared not look into the mirror.

I started to hit “PLAY” again on this death music in my head, but I stopped. Emotions started building inside me.

I turned and ran towards another place. I ran towards the King’s Quarters and into the Throne Room without any warning. God sees me running towards Him and smiles. I jump into His lap and just sit there sobbing. After awhile, I just sit there and neither one of us says anything. I am in the lap of God the Father. The Holy Spirit is inside of me. Jesus is at the right hand. The Trinity is all together and using all of the miracles of Heaven to comfort my aching heart. They were healing the pains of my soul.

“Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.” Psalm 100:4 NIV

I did not approach God with prayer, praise or thanksgiving. I was not on my knees or with my head towards the ground. I did not have my hands together in a “prayer-mode” fashion. There were no Psalms, singing, requests, petitions, or any agreements being made.

I just hugged my Father.

I have spent many days praising God, singing to Him, rejoicing in Him. I have spent days praying for the healings of others, for the Holy Spirit to work in the hearts of the unsaved, and for miracles to be answered.

Not today. Today, I just hugged my Father.

“A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows,
is God in his holy dwelling.” Psalm 68:5 NIV

I did not know my father growing up. I did spend most of my time talking with and sharing with God.

“Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16 NKJV

I have approached the Lord on many occasions in my life. I have full permission to come to the Throne and I took Him up on it. As I look back on my life with the Lord, I realized that I have grown up a lot and that I still have quite a distance to go. My appearances in the Throne Room have not all been stellar behavior on my part. I have thrown temper tantrums, said rude comments and gave prideful declarations. I have also approached God without the fear of the Lord.

“The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.” Psalm 25:14 NIV

I did not realize that God made us in His image and He also has emotions. God experiences all of the following: love, sorrow, anger, regrets, laughter, joy, pain and jealousy. I have been given a lot of grace and can claim the blood of Jesus.

Before Jesus paid the price for our sins, God dwelt in the Holy of Holies. Once a year a High Priest would enter into this inner place to make a sacrifice on the behalf of the nation for that year. If there were ANY flaw in the sacrifice, procedure, or in the heart of the Priest, God would zap him down. They may have tied a rope around one of the priest’s legs to pull him back out, in case he was zapped. God was SERIOUS about sacrifices and the hearts of those around it. This would be a forerunner to the perfect sacrifice that Jesus was to become. The Fear of the Lord was strong on those who were near the Throne of God.

Now, we have free access to the Throne, but we should still not take it lightly. Coming into the throne with a raised fist and a pout is dangerously close to not having the Fear of the Lord.

Today, I just hugged my Father.

No rope around my feet. No one had to pull me out. I was not going to get zapped. I was going to get blessed. I was going to be forgiven. Tomorrow, I would approach the Throne with thanksgiving, praise and a few prayers.

Today, I just hugged my Daddy.

Later on, I would ask for miracle healings, deliverances, and divine appointments.

Right now, I am just hugging my LORD. My tapes have been erased.

We hear the door opening to the Throne Room. We see YOU. There’s room in His lap for another. Come on over and get comfortable. My tears have already been dried. Bring yours over.

Daddy is waiting for you.

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APPROACHING THE THRONE
(C) 2007 Tracy Young